Un Cuarto De Hora

Una vez más vuelvo a abrir tus paginas metafóricas para lograr lidiar con aspectos de mi existencia cotidiana que todavía no logro reconciliar; o más bien esta utopía en mi cabeza que no logra parecerse en nada a la realidad. Confrontaciones, verdades inverosímiles, falsas mentiras, la lealtad siempre en juego y nuevamente siento mis creencias tambalearse; se desmorona un poco aquello que creí indestructible; palabras que se toman a la ligera son para mi cosas que jamás tendrán sentido, simplemente no caben en mi cabeza; me arropan de tristeza, me agobia el sentimiento de derrota e impotencia frente a tales cosas. Maldita utopía que no me deja dormir, o malditos nosotros los seres humanos que solo logramos destruir hasta con lo que creamos.

Entanglement  In Entanglement, you’ll meet a woman with Mirror Touch Synesthesia who can physically feel what she sees others feeling. And an exploration of the ways in which all of us are connected — more literally than you might realize. The hour will start with physics and end with a conversation with comedian Maria Bamford and her mother. They discuss what it’s like to be entangled through impersonation.

I confess, I can't do it alone, I don't have the strength to fight anymore, I fear I am losing the battles and there's nothing I can do, those who say, "just get up", "just do it" know nothing of what they say, it is no as easily as to just snap my fingers and it will all be better, Everything seems so much easier from the outside doesn't it? No, that's not the way it works, it's not easier to stand in the constant light, i'ts not easier to smile and pretend that everything is fine;  Darkness is alluring, it's comfortable, it's inspiring, I don't want to get rid of it, I want to use it, I want to explore it, Mold it, Paint it, Write it... I need a place where I can just exploit it, bask in it, understand it and come out the other side anew, but I can't do it alone, I am afraid of it's pull, I fear it is stronger than me; I am a afraid of loosing,I fear I could stay.

This is not my Home,  I only live here...

He might treat her with tenderness, but he looks at me with longing, unless of course I am just seeing a reflection of my own desires...

If there's nothing new under the sun I believe it is time to discover ourselves for that's where the real treasure lies.

Siempre me pregunto, como se pasa del punto A al punto B hasta llegar al punto G.

Words... They don't help as much as we would like them to, but it's a start...

...You are the only one who has always made sense out of me without me ever having to say a word...

...I have started to keep my thoughts to my self because no one listens anymore, no matter how loud I scream...

The danger of wearing your heart on your sleeve is that it's easier for any one to break it...

Project for 2015: emotional independence Will that make cold and distant? Perhaps; no longer will I depend on others whims to be me and do what I desire. Confirmed, people will always disappoint.