Un Cuarto De Hora

" ...I have this dream of being whole, of not going to sleep each night wanting, still sometimes when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for..." We all want to be saved... It's a quote from one of the movies I hold most dear, this is phrase that keeps on coming to my mind more often than not, especially on those sleepless nights when I lay alone in my bed, thinking about the events that went on through the day, how they progressed and the things that need to be done tomorrow, about the ridiculous politics, the waning economy, and how it's all affecting the rest of us, about the future, about the past, about where life has led me up to this point and of it's eventual but eminent end. But mostly what I really think about are the things I want out of life, and there, at that precise moment, is when those lines come rushing to my head making me realize that no matter how many times my fri

Today I came home, wanting to write, to plaster my every feeling in this so very neglected blog, and I thought to my self, what could I possibly write about that I haven't already written before, feelings? well of course that is exactly what this blog is about after all, right? so heart ache, hear break, unrequited love, existential problems, hope, disappointments, growing up, growing lonely, growing old, I have already written about those, regardless of the fact that I am full of all those feelings sill, and loads of others more; and its funny how I notice by going through most of my post that there's nothing I could possibly post today that can't already be found in this blog probably more than 3 times already,  so, this being the case, I have decided I will be closing this blog maybe for a while, maybe forever, this is yet to be determinate, I figured if I don't have anything new to post about my monotonous existence best keep them all to my self.  and with

I have this pain in my heart that doesn't let me sleep,  I can't make out what it is or where it comes from,  I only wish it would let me be, I wish it would go away;  And then there are times when this idea creeps behind me and makes me think deaths is near by, this which always leaves me wondering out of my wits,  I wonder if this life is real,  I wonder if I am not alone, I wonder if I am not already gone,  I wonder if death has not yet claimed me for it's own and I know not of this;  What if everything I see is an illusion,  what if nothing of what I hear is true,  what if every day deceives me,  what if there is only this pain in my heart and I am bound to it for all eternity,  what if there is no time and space,  what if here nothing really matters,  what if everything is pointless and deep down inside I am but an empty shell;  There is no motion here, there is no spark, there is no life, there is only nothingness,  for I feel noth

If you only knew how many times I have wanted to kiss you, to lose my self in your arms once more, to feel the warmth of your lips touch mine; block once more the world around us, breath your air, smell your scent, I want to feel how your hands run through my body, from my shoulders to my cheeks, from my neck to my back, I want to run my fingers through your hair, place my arms around your neck, as you pull me close in an embrace that will last more than a life time; breath each other in, hear our hearts beat as one; catch our breath wile our noses still touch, wile our foreheads still touch....    I wonder, if I try again, would you let me?

Don't Cry Guns N' Roses  Talk to me softly There is something in your eyes Don't hang your head in sorrow And please don't cry I know how you feel inside I've I've been there before Somethin is changin' inside you And don't you know Don't you cry tonight I still love you baby Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight Give me a whisper And give me a sign Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye Don't you take it so hard now And please don't take it so bad I'll still be thinkin' of you And the times we had...baby And don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight And please remember that I never lied And please remember how I felt inside now honey You gotta make it your own way But you'll be alright now su

I want to go out tonight, find a place where no one knows me, where the music is loud, the shots are  s trong  and the men are  cheap;  so I can dance the night away and forget about the pain that it is to be me...

"Feel" Robbie Williams Come and hold my hand I wanna contact the living Not sure I understand This role I've been given I sit and talk to God And he just laughs at my plans My head speaks a language I don't understand I just wanna feel Real love feel the home that I live in Cos I got too much life Running through my veins Going to waste I don't wanna die But I ain't keen on living either Before I fall in love I'm preparing to leave her Scare myself to death That's why I keep on running Before I've arrived I can see myself coming I just wanna feel Real love feel the home that I live in Cos I got too much life Running through my veins Going to waste And I need to feel Real love and the love ever after I can not get enough I just wanna feel Real love feel the home that I live in I got too much love Running through my veins To go to waste I just wanna feel Real love and the love ever after There

Ya se que la verdad significa poco para aquellos que se rehúsan a verla, pero y que de aquellos que disfrutamos de su gloria, hemos nosotros de sufrir en silencio aferrados a esta verdad, aquella que se parece mas bien a una causa perdida,  mientras los demás disfrutan de la libertad que les da la ignorancia; y que continúan sus vidas como si nunca hubieran formado parte de esto aunque muy en el fondo de su ser les torture el remordimiento  de ignorar lo que esta justo frente a sus ojos.

Lunes maldito que trajiste tu presencia, dejándome su esencia en mi alma colgada todo el día, sera que no le podre ignorar, acaso sera que no podre huir, y mucho menos sera lo que podre olvidar, dime como eh de avanzar, como desprender este sentir, que apenas me deja respirar,  sera quizás que no lo deseas, sera posible que no es lo correcto o sera simplemente que no debo;  dime entonces Lunes maldito, como me libero, que eh de hacer,  dame una explicación al menos, alguna señal divina, una estrella quizás, alguna huella que me indique el camino que eh de seguir...

Only in the confinement of the deepest darkest dungeons of our selves, do we unveil our true form and let our flaws, fears and insecurities hang out and be displayed in all their full glory, just for our own amusement or tweaking, depending on your feeling and level of self esteem at the moment; yet, we all have those extra few moments in front of the mirror just before a shower, where we praise or scold ourselves but worry not for your secrets are safe within and will never see the light of day...