Tuesday, December 03, 2013


"...I have this dream of being whole, of not going to sleep each night wanting, still sometimes when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for..."

We all want to be saved
We all want to be saved...

It's a quote from one of the movies I hold most dear, this is phrase that keeps on coming to my mind more often than not, especially on those sleepless nights when I lay alone in my bed, thinking about the events that went on through the day, how they progressed and the things that need to be done tomorrow, about the ridiculous politics, the waning economy, and how it's all affecting the rest of us, about the future, about the past, about where life has led me up to this point and of it's eventual but eminent end.

But mostly what I really think about are the things I want out of life, and there, at that precise moment, is when those lines come rushing to my head making me realize that no matter how many times my friends keep telling me, "you'll be fine", "I'm here for you", "you can count on me", "you can trust me", "I'll never let you down", at the end of the day you go home alone, to an empty house, to an empty bed, to an empty fire; and this is beside the point that they all truly wish nothing but the best for you, they all do it so willingly, so gladly and honestly do mean it; and this is all regardless of the fact that I do appreciate it and I need each and every one of them like the air in my lungs.

But sometimes, just sometimes, all you wish for is to have that special someone you can curl up with in bed at night, that someone that will make all your fears go away with just a smile, a person that will hold your hand, kiss you, hug you, hold you till you fall asleep and whisper in your ear, that everything will be alright, that nothing will harm you as long as he is around and that he will protect you, fight for you and keep you safe from harm; because at the end of the day, we all need a knight in shining armor, because at the end of the night, we all want to be saved.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

To Be Continued?...

Today I came home, wanting to write, to plaster my every feeling in this so very neglected blog, and I thought to my self, what could I possibly write about that I haven't already written before, feelings? well of course that is exactly what this blog is about after all, right? so heart ache, hear break, unrequited love, existential problems, hope, disappointments, growing up, growing lonely, growing old, I have already written about those, regardless of the fact that I am full of all those feelings sill, and loads of others more; and its funny how I notice by going through most of my post that there's nothing I could possibly post today that can't already be found in this blog probably more than 3 times already, 
so, this being the case, I have decided I will be closing this blog maybe for a while, maybe forever, this is yet to be determinate, I figured if I don't have anything new to post about my monotonous existence best keep them all to my self. 

and with this I bid you farewell, its been fun.

Monday, March 04, 2013


I have this pain in my heart that doesn't let me sleep, 
I can't make out what it is or where it comes from, 
I only wish it would let me be,
I wish it would go away; 
And then there are times when this idea creeps behind me and makes me think deaths is near by,
this which always leaves me wondering out of my wits, 
I wonder if this life is real, 
I wonder if I am not alone,
I wonder if I am not already gone, 
I wonder if death has not yet claimed me for it's own and I know not of this; 
What if everything I see is an illusion, 
what if nothing of what I hear is true, 
what if every day deceives me, 
what if there is only this pain in my heart and I am bound to it for all eternity, 
what if there is no time and space, 
what if here nothing really matters, 
what if everything is pointless and deep down inside I am but an empty shell; 
There is no motion here, there is no spark, there is no life, there is only nothingness, 
for I feel nothing...

Tuesday, February 26, 2013


If you only knew how many times I have wanted to kiss you, to lose my self in your arms once more, to feel the warmth of your lips touch mine; block once more the world around us, breath your air, smell your scent, I want to feel how your hands run through my body, from my shoulders to my cheeks, from my neck to my back, I want to run my fingers through your hair, place my arms around your neck, as you pull me close in an embrace that will last more than a life time; breath each other in, hear our hearts beat as one; catch our breath wile our noses still touch, wile our foreheads still touch....    I wonder, if I try again, would you let me?

Monday, February 04, 2013

Song Of The Month

Don't Cry
Guns N' Roses 

Talk to me softly
There is something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin is changin' inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sign
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had...baby

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember
how I felt inside now honey
You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I want to go out tonight, find a place where no one knows me, where the music is loud, the shots are strong and the men are cheap; so I can dance the night away and forget about the pain that it is to be me...

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Song Of The Month

Robbie Williams

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I don't wanna die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her

Scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming
I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel
Real love and the love ever after
I can not get enough

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel
Real love and the love ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

La verdad es que...

Ya se que la verdad significa poco para aquellos que se rehúsan a verla,
pero y que de aquellos que disfrutamos de su gloria,
hemos nosotros de sufrir en silencio aferrados a esta verdad,
aquella que se parece mas bien a una causa perdida, 
mientras los demás disfrutan de la libertad que les da la ignorancia;
y que continúan sus vidas como si nunca hubieran formado parte de esto
aunque muy en el fondo de su ser les torture el remordimiento 
de ignorar lo que esta justo frente a sus ojos.

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Lunes maldito que trajiste tu presencia, dejándome su esencia en mi alma colgada todo el día,
sera que no le podre ignorar, acaso sera que no podre huir, y mucho menos sera lo que podre olvidar,
dime como eh de avanzar, como desprender este sentir, que apenas me deja respirar, 
sera quizás que no lo deseas, sera posible que no es lo correcto o sera simplemente que no debo; 
dime entonces Lunes maldito, como me libero, que eh de hacer, 
dame una explicación al menos, alguna señal divina, una estrella quizás,
alguna huella que me indique el camino que eh de seguir...

Thursday, January 03, 2013


Only in the confinement of the deepest darkest dungeons of our selves, do we unveil our true form and let our flaws, fears and insecurities hang out and be displayed in all their full glory, just for our own amusement or tweaking, depending on your feeling and level of self esteem at the moment; yet, we all have those extra few moments in front of the mirror just before a shower, where we praise or scold ourselves but worry not for your secrets are safe within and will never see the light of day...


As an artist, I feel the need to bring this to everyone's attention, the images I have posted on this blog belong all to their respective owners, I have no the intention to take credit for the work of those with excellent creativity, their use in this blog merely is to recreate or maybe relate to the text on each post which have their respective owners as well..... Enjoy.


Como artista, siento la necesidad de llevar esto a la atención de todos, las imágenes que he publicado en este blog pertenecen todos a sus respectivos propietarios, no tengo la intención de tomar el crédito por el trabajo de las personas con una excelente creatividad, su uso en este blog sólo es volver a crear o tal vez se relacionan con el texto en cada mensaje que tienen sus respectivos propietarios también ..... Disfrute.